I now have 27 bottles of Pure Blonde in my fridge....

So my parents will be arriving in Sydney on the 7th of May at 6.30 am to attend my graduation, and because of that I have been trying to save up beers (the cheap way) as my dad has at least 2 glasses of beer everynight. Because we get 1 courtesy beer each night we work at the Basement, I've been taking 2 (one under my name, and one under Soon's name), so that I don't have to spend money buying them for my dad (cheapskate I know, but Hey beers can be expensive!).

On another note, my graduation is scheduled on the 9th of May and students are meant to be receiving tickets 3 weeks prior to the actual date. Its now 2 weeks to my graduation and I have yet to receive the tickets. So I called up the Uni yesterday to check if something was amiss and I found out someone submitted my final results after the closing date and because of that, they told me they cannot schedule me into the May ceremony because it is already full. What a load of bullshit! It is not even my fault that my results were submitted late and my parents are coming all the way just to attend my graduation. Now, they're telling me I might have to attend either the July or October ceremony. This bloody Uni is so unorganized and incompetent and dare they pride themselves to be the Top 100 in the world. The person I spoke to can't even do anything because she's not the person in charge and I have to wait till Monday to speak to them again because today is Anzac Day. Sigh...What am I to do?

I am really looking forward to moving to HK and start a new life. It feels like a whole new adventure is about to unfold and I wonder what awaits of me.

EXPOSED!!

Fat Man found my blog. So now I have to filter everything before I put it in. Teeheheh....secrets should be kept secrets.

Oh...my love...

Man: What are you thinking?

Me: Oh...I'm just imagining myself deliberately blasting the player and dancing to the music if I can't wake you up in the morning next time when I move in.

Man: HhHhmm....that would be very freaky....

Me: Why? What's so freaky about it?

Man: Imagine yourself waking up in the morning and the first thing that greets you is a Polar Bear dancing....wouldn't that freak you out?

Me: =_=" *idiot*

Waking Up Is Easy

The Man stayed up the whole night so that he could call me and wake me up to go to work. I had to be up by 7.45am and because of the 3 hour difference, he stayed up till 4.45 am not sleeping because he knows if he falls asleep he will not be able to wake up and call me. All this without even me asking him to do it. I'm touched. I feel like the luckiest girl on earth : ) Thank you darling.

And Now...

I'm so excited about my trip to Macau and Hong Kong. I'll be flying via VivaMacau from Sydney and arriving in Macau on the 10th Feb where my Fat Man will be picking me. Will be staying for 2 days and then popping down to Hong Kong for a week and then back to Macau so that I can fly back to Sydney. Considering of applying for the Chinese Visa so that I can go to China as well since its so near. Maybe just a day trip. The most important thing is I can't wait to see my Fat Man. Its been 6 months since I last saw him :(

Everything seems to be going on well, I've passed everything, just waiting for my graduation in May and I have to start applying for my Permanent Residency.

On a side note, I really need to be frugal now before my trip to HK so that I can have money to spend. I've saved in terms of accomodation because I'll be staying in Fat Man's place. It's scary to come to think of it. I'll be staying with his family and I don't know how well they will accept me seeing that they are rather conservative and traditional. Besides, its Chinese New Year and there will relatives around. Gosh!

Till then....

Thoughts

As I sit in front of my laptop listening to the sirens of the ambulance on the background, I ponder about what lies ahead of me. The anticiaption of waiting for my final results are affecting me so much that I get panic attacks everytime I receive a new email from my Uni. It is unbelievable that my next step lies in the hands of a meagre paper bearing my A, B, Cs or Ds.

Lonliness have never hit so hard as I think about my family, my friends and my dearest lover who are thousands of miles away from me. No doubt I have lovely friends here, and aunties and uncles and cousins, but we've never been close enough as to take the part of being there for you like your own parents and siblings. Coming home to an empty house without a single word of hello from someone to greet you after a long day's work is an obvious enough sign to tell you 'DUH! All you have is yourself!'

Mum disagrees that I move to Hong Kong as she insists that I will hate the lifestyle and the country although I've never been there to experience it. She does not understand that although I may have Soon around but he has his own 'family' with Ross and it is no longer the same as when he is still single. Ross is his top priority as he is his life partner and I may lose the chance of building my own family with the man of my desire if I stay here. I believe sometimes, compromise and sacrifices are essential in making a relationship work. I do not wish to live a life of regrets and 'what ifs'.

As I think further, sometimes I feel like I'm living a life which is being dictated by people around me and not the life that I want to live. Although I am happy to be here, the loneliness I feel is slowly seeping into an emotional trauma.

I just called...to say...

*ring*ring*

Me: "Hello, good afternoon Jay Jay's Marrickville, this is Gigi speaking"

Anonymous Guy:"Hi, I was in your shop this morning and I was just wondering how big your tits were?"




What a great way to start your day at work

When a Woman Loves a Man

I got a call from Soon today telling me Mr. Big rang him and told him Ms. Mum's BF had rang Mr. Big. When Mr. Big answered the call he heard Ms. Mum's BF on the phone saying 'you mother fucker get your ass here' to someone but not to him particularly. Then Mr. Big heard on the background Ms. Mum crying hysterically and shouting. After that the phone cut off. We knew what was going on and told Mr. Big to drive over to Ms. Mum's place lest her BF is hitting her. When Mr. Big got to Ms. Mum's place, her BF refused to come out and was hiding himself in the room. So, Mr. Big asked Ms. Mum what was going on, why is she torturing herself being with him again after all that he has done etc etc and to cut a long story short, nothing was settled and Mr. Big left.

I feel the pain for Ms. Mum and I am extremely worried for her. Everyone around her has told her that her BF is psychotic, possesive and just plain crazy. How could a man accuse his own girlfriend of having an affair with all the gay friends she has, and whom she has known for several years? His reason, they are just pretending to be gay so that they could take advantage of her. That was the most ridiculous thing I have ever heard.

Ms. Mum used to be a strong and independent woman. She always believed that women could live without men as long as they are capable of taking care and financing themselves. I do not know what has happened to her. She is no longer the person she was when I knew her. Time and time this man has hurt her, not allowing her to go out, not allowing her to have any friends at all, cutting off her social life and controlling her life. Every twice a week he would go crazy shouting and screaming at her and accusing her of doing things that she did not do. But yet, again and again she forgives him and goes back to him. Even after he left her and moved out from their place, dissappearing for 2 weeks without answering any of her calls, she still waited until he came back.

Soon said to me that I could never understand why Ms. Mum is behaving like that because I am not a woman in her early 30s who is still not married when everyone around her is getting married. He said I will never understand the loneliness one would feel when you have no one to love you and care for you especially when you've hit 30 something of age.

Is it true that when you're in your 30s and have a boyfriend you would hang on to him no matter what just because you're worried you will never be able to find another one? Do we, as women really need to depend on such lousy man, giving our everything and only getting heartaches in return? I understand truly that it gets lonely, but losing your self worth and self respect for a man like that is even worse than being lonely for the rest of your life. If ever I become like that, I pray, my dear friends, bring me back to reality.

A True Boyfriend

I came across this and found it rather interesting. Unconsciously I realised I was actually refering it to Man and making a 'tick' to where it applies. I've added a couple more stuff to remind myself what a great man he is (though I know many would find that he's 'too much). I thinks its sweet (what the hell is wrong with me).

1. Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything *tick*

2. Tease her and let her tease you back *tick*

3. Stay up all night with her when she's sick. Go all the way to chinatown to buy her congee, putting towels on her forehead to make sure her termperature doesn't go up, feeling her temperature every 1 hour throughout the night. *tick*tick*tick*tick*

4. Watch her favorite movie with her *tick*

5. Give her the world and protect her from the world *tick*tick*

6. Let her wear your clothes *tick*

7. When she's bored and sad, hang outwith her. Even when she's not bored and sad still hang out with her *tick*tick*

8. Let her know she's important *tick*

9. Kiss her in the pouring rain, or under the blazing sun *tick*tick*

10. When she runs up at you crying.. thefirst thing you say is.."Who's ass am i beating today baby?" *tick*

11. Blows dry her hair when she's done showering *tick*

12. Offer to do the dishes when she's too lazy *tick*

13. Clean the house when she's out working or at Uni without being asked so that she doesn't have to do it *tick*

14. Making her coffee when she's tired without being asked *tick*

15. Puts blanket over her when she falls asleep on the couch *tick*

16. Gives her your jacket when she's feeling cold even though its only 10 degree and you're only wearing a T-shirt *tick*

I may add in more later when I can think of what he has done. There may be more, or they may not be afterall.

An uneventful day

Today was uneventful as I had to work from 9am to 5.30pm. So I was stuck in the shop for approximately 8.5 hours. Took the bus home at a quater to 6 and stopped by Coles to shop for bread. I had a sudden craving for bread and sandwiches while working and so while in Coles I bought a bag of dinner rolls (which had 6 in them), a loaf of wholemeal multigrain bread and a loaf of turkish bread. Its about due for 'time of the month' and thus the weird cravings.

Dinner was simple, lemon pepper tuna topped with ricotta, four season salad and mayonnaise on the toasted wholemeal multigrain bread. Tomorrow's probably going to be turkish bread night with the dinner rolls as entre. At 9 Soon called and told me he was having dinner with Ross at Pizza & Beer and they bought a bottle of red wine. So being a fan of red wine how could I resist. As assured by Soon, the red wine was absolutely beautiful, smooth, full flavoured and bold; an Elderton Shiraz year 2004.

So today was not that bad after all, a good wine at the end of the day always always cure anything.

Man and Family

Man has finally gone to Macau and meet my family (parents, brother, aunt and uncle). He made a pre-tour around Macau to familiarize himself with the tourist area and took a couple of maps just in case they'd get lost while having walk. He said it was especially important for my brother just in case he got lost and couldn't find his way back to the hotel. He even bought a local phone sim card for my parents so that they could call him without having to pay international roaming. Parents seem to absolutely adore him because of the way he was taking care of them. They were particularly impressed by how thoughtful he was with everything and that he actually made the initiative to want to meet my parents for the first time without me being there.

I must say this is the first time a guy has ever done anything like that for me. He really wanted my family to like and accept him and said that it is absolutely mandatory for him to take care of them because they are my family. I am extremely touched by all his actions and it is really hard that we are so far apart. Sometimes I feel that this is all just a dream and it is not real that I have finally found a man who not only love and adores me but also my family. Im only hoping we could maintain this relationship although it is difficult and I really beginning to think that this guy is worth considering marriage with. Fingers crossed. I hope everthing will turn out good.

Outdated post that I've written and kept hidden and forgot to post

I’ve never thought I could find a serious and stable relationship ever in my life. Something always happens in the midst of it and then it will be the end. I knew I could never trust a man no matter how much I like him and even if I might tell him I trust him completely deep down I know I never could. At the back of my mind I’m always expecting something bad to happen.

Being in a relationship with him is beginning to change my view on men. He has somehow made me believe that there is still hope in mankind (literally). Never have I met a man that truly knows and understands me without having me tell him what I want. The first incident that made me notice he is different happened 2 weeks into the relationship. He came to me and showed me a picture of the bus timetable he took at the bus stop for the buses that I usually take to work and Uni. He said this is so that I don’t have to rush and guess what time the bus is coming and then always carelessly leave things at home. It is always the little things that he does that really touched me deep inside. But most importantly I know, he loves me with all his heart.

I have never had a man that buys me a mobile when he realized my mobile’s not working. I’ve never had a man who offers to meet my family and want my family to meet him. I’ve never had a man that pampers me and doesn’t patronize me even when he knows I’m wrong. But most of all, I’ve never had a man that asks for nothing except for me to care and to love him. Why is it then, do I still feel skeptical of the relationship? Could it be because it is too good to be true?

The thing I always think I am incapable of having, has come to me

Still to my disbelieve, I think its beginning. But where will it lead to? What will it be like?

A Place To Call My Own

Its been a hectic 1 month for me, juggling between jobs, assignment and looking for a place to stay. So I apologize, my dear friends for not updating my blog.

Today have been a lucky day for me because I've finally managed to rent a place. Its a partly furnished studio apartment and its situated at a very convenient area. Only 5 minutes walk from Soon's place. I've never thought I'd be able to get it actually because it all happened too suddenly. I only found out about the inspection this morning itself when I went online. But lucky for me the agent said he preferred me than this other German girl (who actually has already put in the deposit for the place) so he's leasing it to me. But of course I'd have to pay $5 extra each week so instead of the asking price $200 a week I'd have to pay $205 a week.

The studio is a funny little place because the bathroom is actually situated outside instead of inside. So I'd have to walk around half naked on the balcony to get the toilet everyday. Not complaining because that place is really a good deal. I've seen quite a few other places and they are all crappy and expensive. The only thing is, I haven't got a bed in the new place so I can't move in just yet. Silly Soon said he'll loan me the bed and when everyone's asleep at night we'll carry the bed together back to my new place. Sometimes I wonder what goes on in that big head of his. Just the other day when we (Soon, Ross and me) were having yum cha for lunch at Marigold he said this to Ross; 'You know, actually Chinese are very smart. Just by using 2 sticks and our finger we can manage to create chopsticks but westerners only know how to use fork, so easy! Just poke poke poke. Chinese can make use of everything around them to create something new or to replace something that they lack of. For example if girls need to make-up and they ran out of eye shadow they can use the Tumeric powder as eye shadow. See! So smart!'. Seriously, what the hell is wrong with this guy?? He could just come out with anything.

I'm really happy with my life here at the moment...minus the few stressful moments when u have to think about money and work. It really is different when you have to rent a place urself, pay for the rent and bills etc etc....It really is different from when you're living at home with parents. But its all good.....it feels like an adult hahehehea.

So that's all the time I have folks. Will update again soon.

Woot Woot!!

Daren Hayes is performing in BX tonight and I'll be working! WooHoooo~!! Its like getting paid to watch Daren Hayes....hehehe. Ross said his partner will be there I wonder how he looks like.

Not Perasan La....

I have a feeling Mr. Chef (one of the chefs at BX) likes me. It's an instinct... the way he always tries to get me to notice him, annoys the hell out of me just so that i could talk to him, stealing glimpses of me when he thinks im not looking. However, 50% of the people in BX hates him because he's a dickhead. My feeling towards him is confused. Sometimes I think he's a nice guy....but sometimes when he really annoys me I loathe him....sometimes he can be very obnoxious and rude and then I feel like punching him right at the face.

Anyone has any idea how I could test him out and see if he really is interested in me?

Today I made new friends....

:)

1. CC from Singapore
2. Miso from Japan
3. Han from Sri Lanka
4. Libby from China
5. Lissy from China
6. EL from China

now we all have each other's phone number so I can consider them friends....It feels like primary school again......

On What's Been Happening

It's been ages I know since I last blogged. Not that I do not have anything to write about but because I'm using Ross's laptop to do it, it just doesn't feel right. Life's really good here and I'm so glad to be here. Uni only started yesterday so I've been doing nothing but 'playing' for the past one month.

Talking about Uni, I've always thought Malaysia or Asian countries are the biggest player in the hierachichal social status but apparently Australia does it too. For starters, my first Professor said he gives priority to his Postgrad students for consultation. He doesn't like Undergrads (Actually I find that offensive because I have once been an Undergrad Student) So anytime we wanna see him he'd be more that happy too. Today as I was walking towards the Uni bookstore ( I need to get a reader for Thursday) I realised the queue is nearly 2 km long but because I needed the book I had to join in the line. As it was nearing my turn which is about half hour waiting in line, I saw a special sign next to my queue which says 'Postgrads Priority Only' which has only 3 person in line! Can't believe how stupid I was waiting in line for 30 minutes.

Anyway, got a job and the pay is fantastic. Will upload pictures soon.

The Art of Kissing

So there we were the 3 of us having a drink at our usual place and the full detail of what transpired this conversation I cannot remember

He: Have you guys encountered anyone who really suck at kissing?
Me: Oh my god yes!! It's so disgusting just to think of it.
She: Really?? I've never....all my partners were pretty alright
He: Wow you've been really lucky...
Me: Yeah man....so lucky
She: What do you mean by bad?? How is it like?
Me: You wouldn't want to experience it...
He: I had this girl....she was so bad.....my face was wet all over
Me + She: Eeeewwww Gross!
He: Hehehehe yup.....it was horrendous....I was like 'keep your tongue babe....I don't need you to help me wash my face' and then you smell her saliva on you....Teehehehe
Me+She: *sweat*

Yay!

Visa approved! Chop, Sign, till April 2009! AaAaahhh Life is Wonderful~! 3 more weeks and I'll be gone from Malaysia!

p/s: Soon has been bragging about his 'beautiful' house and the fountain he built. He's also taking me to this 'wonderful' Laosian restaurant (which he can't stop talking about) on the night I'm ariving. Fingers crossed that everything he said is true to his words.